cat si kucing

salah satu ciptaan Allah S.W.T yg kita perlu sayangi dan hargai...Subhanallah cOmel2 sunggOh!! yg gemOk, pendek, putih, hitam, kelabu pelbagai ragam!bukannya xpnah tgk kucin seblOm nihh,kat umah kat msia tuuu pOn

ada bela kucin gakkk.. tp kat kOrea nih susah sgt nak bertembung n manja2 ngan sekOr kucin pOnn...anjing bnyk laaa.. sO sgt rindu rasa fluffy2 huhu >.<" sumpah teringat kucin kat umah.. mcm2 cerita.. sedihh2 kebanyakannya.. yg mati kena penyek, yg kena buang, yg saket... T.T yg suka2 nak buang2 kucing, seksa, pukul sana sini tuu sunggOh haku xpaham.. sedangkan dalam Islam pOn menganjurkan umatnya berbelas kasihan sesama makhluk.. Astaghfitullah sabar ja bila pk blk.. kejam sunggOh manusia.. ambillah cOntOh sahabat Rasulullah S.A.W,Saidina Abu Hurairah R.A tgk gelaran pOn dah taO betapa kita patOt menyayangi makhluk Allah yg cOmel nih.. wat's nOt tO luv?? anyhOw i luvvvvv cats! very da very da muchieeeeee muchhh! maybe sbb dr kecik membesaq ngan kucinnngg hehe

here are sum pic we tOok at 'gio cat cafe'

lepasss gakkk giannn nak maen ngan benda fluffy2 huhu

this has gOt tO be my favvvvvvvvvvvvvvv Of all~~~ OmO!! sO cute~~

tgkkk laaaa muka cam nak nangessss ahaha!

wif my fav..yawwwwwwwwww~~~

asik tidOqq ja keja~~

mcm snOwbell ahaha ~~~

똑바로 앉고 정신 차려!

it's the middle Of the night..feels like blOgging..
dOnt knOw wat is the main purpOse...maybe just tO remind myself that i still can think prOperly..
gOt sum stuff gOing On lately... lets say HEAVY stuff..
urghhhh i just wanna get it Over wif..
wat am i even dOing rite nOw..?
i shud gO tO sleep... at least get sum rest till i can think straight again..
well that's the prOblem! i havent dOne anything yet!
all i did was lying dOwn scrOllinng thru all the applicatiOns in the ipOd n bla bla bla...NOTHING!
정신 차려 미라야~~~!

karmakah..?

hati tak tenang..kepala berserabut..
serabut memikirkan segala macam cerita.. bukan cerita mengenai Org laen..
ahhh buang masa saja fikir hal Org laen... cerita tentang diri.. cerita tentang perkara silam dan juga masa depan.. ya mudah meninggalkan perkara sudah.. mudah lagi berkata "ahh lupakan ja semua..mulakan dr awal..start fresh.."
tetapi melakukannya,itu yg mencabar... di hadapan terhidang segala jenis masalah.. segala macam ketidakpastian menanti.. ruang2 kesilapan pasti ditempuhi.. tp buat masa ini diri amat saket.. saket dgn segala jenis perihal masalah.. rasa seperti mahu terbang pulang segera.. lupakan segalanya buat sementara.. jika sementara itu memadai..
rasa seperti ingin memadam segala.. kalau lah memadam memOri itu semudah menekan butang "erase" atau "delete"... hmmmmm menyedihkan...
tetapi apa patut dilakukan..? jika sekarang hati tidak tenteram..? di manakah silapnya? seringkali bertanya... bukan sekadar tertanya2 sendiri tp dengan penuh rendah diri memOhOn petunjuk Ilahi.. mOga dipermudahkan segala yg bakal dilalui.. ya benar.. apa yg kita inginkan tidak semestinya yg terbaek utk diri.. dan apa yg kita perOleh tidak selalunya kita syukuri... namun pada hakikatnya itulah yg terbaek.. mungkin perlu lebih banyak bermuhasabah diri.. agar tidak tenggelam dan hanyut dlm dunia khayalan sendiri... karmakah semua ini..? apabila memberi bakal menerima kembali..? ahhh haku lebih mempercayai hikmah Ilahi.. apabila sesuatu terjadi pasti punya sebab tersendiri yg bakal memberi manfaat suatu hari nanti...

ketahuilah

anda perlu tahu, saya bukan begitu lagi..
anda perlu tahu, saya sudah pOn menjauhi...
anda perlu tahu, saya TAKKAN mengulangi...
anda perlu tahu, tanpa sOkOngan anda juga saya akan terus begini...
begini...membenci..bukan anda yg saya perlu benci,jauh skali sesama saudara sendiri..
tetapi kesilapan lepas yg terus menghantui...
itu yg patut dibenci...
itu yg harus dicaci...
ttp bukan diri ini...
bukan diri ini minta dimaki...
tidak juga mminta simpati...
hanya mengharapkan agar difahami...
kerana diri yg dulu tidak akan datang lagi...
X((

dengki vs iri hati

dengki dan iri hati... perkara yg dipandang sama namun pada hakikatnya sangat berbeza.. perihal dengki dan iri hati selalu dikaitkan dgn ketidakpuasan seseorang terhadap kesenangan Orang laen..namun kedua2nya berbeza dari aspek kesan...dengki hanya tertumpu kepada makna negatif semata, tidak pula iri hati.. iri hati bOleh dikaitkan dengan perkara2 pOsitif...
menjadi lumrah apabila kita merasa iri hari terhadap sesuatu yg lebih baik yg kita nmpak yg ada pd Org lain.. kita iri hati apabila ada yg berjaya dlm pelajaran, kita iri hati pd yg berjaya dlm kewangan dan sebagainya...perasaan iri hati ini jugalah yg akan menOlak kita utk berusaha lebih kuat bg mencapai kejayaan yg setimpal...merasa iri hati tidak salah..malah ianya perlu utk menjadi pembakar semangat dlm kita mencapai sesuatu mOtif..
perihal dengki pula sangat berbeza... dengki ialah perasaan apabila kita mula merasa tidak senang dengan kesenangan Org lain hingga mengakibatkan kita mengharap bahawa kesenangan itu hilang darinya atau menjadi milik kita sendiri... dengki tidak akan membawa apa2 kesan pOsitif baik utk diri sendiri mahupun Org lain.. dengki juga tidak akan menjadi pendOrOng kepada kejayaan..maka sifat dengki harus dijauhi.. andai kata terlintas walau sedikit pOn rasa ingin melihat kejayaan seseOrang itu musnah, jauhilah perasaan itu..itu semua hasutan syaitan semata.. rezeki sudah ditentukan Allah S.W.T.. redha dan jalanilah kehidupan dengan rahmatNya..
kepada yg berkenaan, saya tahu anda sendiri lebih kenal diri anda..anda perlu tahu bahawa segalanya tidak akan meninggalkan kesan terhadap diri saya tetapi diri anda.. segalanya hanya akan merOsakkan hati anda..maka pilihlah utk merasa iri hati atau dengki...

the pain...

berhempas pulas study selama dua minggu tanpa henti utk final exam...apa rasa? sekarang puas! dah habehh exam.. dah start cuti... dah cOnfirm dpt 실습 *Alhamdulillah*.. hmmm apa lagi...? apa yg xpuas hati lagi tuuu haaa? sumanya Allah dah atur cantek... yg laen2 tuu terpulang kpd usaha dan rezeki masing2...
hmmmmm but then there's Only One thing left... saketttttttt laaaaaa huhuhu~~
4 hari sudah *belum tamat exam* haku kna attack migrain krOnik... berdenyut2 n sumtimes rasa cam nak tercabOt bijik mata.. nmpak mcm hyperbOla tp takkkk...btOl rsa cam tuuu.. Okayyyy suhu kat luaq rumah tgh2 mlm taim tuuuu dlm -7~-8 degree...sbb saket sgt kpla ni haku bukak tngkap n cOolkan kepala nihhh pkai aircOnd semula jadi..sadis.. kalO xwat camtuu mmg xkan tdOq smpai pg agaknyaa...
Okayyyyy sakett kepala.. sO whatt?! risO gakk sbb sOnbey dah meninggal sbb saket2 kpla ja *Alfatihah kpd arwah* aaaaaahhhhh xkannn laaaa.... klik klik klik check internet...
Owhhhh rupanya2 tuuu salah satu symptOm PMS!!! aaaaaaaaarghhhhhh awat bnyk sgt???? mampOsss haku camnihh kalO smpai ke tua nnT nak kna hadap suma jenis symptOm nihh! Okayyyy2 i'll deal wif it! patOt laaa makan panadOl 4 5 bijik pOn xdak kesan... haihhhhh... then guess what..? mlm semalam pinggang plakkk wat hal... ni salah satu masalah pOmpuan laaa jugakkkkkk ya Allah.. Tuhan saja taO betapa sakettt! xtdO nyenyak haku satu mlm saket pinggang pnya pasal... satu..satu.. pas kepala dia attack pinggang plakk haaaaa... blOm habesss... blOm habesssss... sapa ckp dah tamat.. td tuuu suma gimic ja tuuu..bg gempakkkk...wanna knOw what the real pain is? STOMACH CRAMPS! Owhhh nO CRAMPS! i hate stOmach cramps! it terrifies me a LOTTTTT! aaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhh p laaa maen jauhhh2 jgn dtg dekatttt..nak wat apa2 pOn xlehh nihhh X"((

*repeken amirah yg xdpt tdOq akibat menahan sakettt..madnesss*

jahatkah haku?

memang btOi ckp akak haku... "mira..nnT mcm2 jenis Owg hang akan jumpa bila hang start hidup sendiri asing drpd family.." btOl! sngat2 btOl! haku dah jumpa mcm2 jenis Owg macam2 jenis kerenah.. baik buruk suma haku dah nmpak..dan dlm perjalanan itu jugak lar haku dpt kenal diri haku...kelemahan sendiri...jatuh bangOn tunggang terbalik masOk lubang serba serbi haku dah rasa..walOpOn xbnyk,tp haku rasa suma tu ckOp utk buatkan haku sedar yg haku ptOt berubah..SEKARANG!
nmpk benar dulu haku nih jahil gila ya Allah...haku berazam nak berubah, nak jadi hamba Allah yg lagi baek dr seblOm nih, nak jadi individu yg baek dgn persekitaran, nak jadi yg TERBAEK dlm suma aspek..tp haku silap sbb pada masa tu haku asik bandingkan diri haku dgn mereka yg perangainya lagi terOk...kalO mcm tuu smpai bila pOn haku xbley berubah jadi lagi baek,btOl tak? sbb haku asik rasakan apa yg ada pada diri haku ni dah ckOp sumanya...silap..haku tersasar di situ OoOoopsss...
sekarang haku btOl2 sedar...untuk berubah haku perlukan sesuatu yg TERBAEK jugak utk dijadikan kayu ukur diri sendiri... btOl...kadang2 kita perlukan kawan yg baek utk tegur kita selalu *kwn2 tlg jgn abaikan haku*...tp kadang2 juga kita perlu terbangOn dr mimpi sendiri...sO that kita xkan terlupa yg kita pernah terlalai~~~

BIG SIGN

dO i have tO put a BIG BOLD signbOard saying "attentiOn please!" ..?? dO i have tO..? uuurghhhh hOw pathetic is that~~

nO One

im nOt Okay..nObOdy tells me im fine
im nOt happy..nObOdy tells me im dOin great
im crying..nObOdy lends me a shOulder tO cry On
im fallin..nObOdy catches me
nObOdy..
nO..nO One
which hits me On the face
i have tO take care Of myself

that's why...

because we are different

nOt tOo far but high tO reach..
that's why...
because we are different

tO care Or nOt tO care.....

tO care..Or nOt tO care....
im tired....tired Of being the One...
waiting 4 nOthing *urghhh pathetic*
yeah maybe i am pathetic...
Or maybe im just being immature..
either way, nOw i realize that i have cared 4 tOo much..
tOo much than i can endure...
i cared tOo much 4 almOst everything arOund me that i fOrget bOut myself..
nOw back tO basic is where i shOuld return...
fOcus On me myself and i
nOt tO say that im being selfish,nO!
im just tOo tired tO think bOut anything else but me...
nOthing else matters...
i knOw this One thing,
as lOng as i am happy, i can make everyOne arOund me as happy...
but if i am crappy, fiuhhhhhh whO knOws..!

emO bukan mcr

"TwT sepeeeettttt! my life is soooooo miserable ble korg2 xde. kite da pndai emo emo skrg tau x? sadis sguh! told u, we should stick together forever! :'( "
this is what she said...kat fOrmspring..! sapa dia?? One Of my girls laaaa..! awek haku tuuu jgn kacO! ishhhhhhh!
haaaaa ckp pasai emO plakkk...! apa haku nak kata? haku pOnn gila2 pnya emO seminggu dua nihhh.. nak taO apa tuuuu emO? definisi emO bg kamus dewan bahasa dan pustaka haku laaa kan..emO nih mcm penyaket laaaa..tp mai xdak warning..bukann mcm senggugut tuuu 2jam lagi nak attack dia bg hint... haaaa emO! bila emO nih hang rasa macam2 laaaa campur2 suma...! satgi haku mulaa laaa rasa nak attack jaa suma Owg! bukan physical attack laa *blOm smpai tahap tuuu laa gilerrr* ni attack emOtiOnally.. ada sOwg tuuu slaluuuu kna! kesiannn gakk! bukan salah dia pOnnn cuma he's at the wrOng place at the wrOng time,that's it! sO haku laa yg jahat kat cni kann...?? whatever! anyway back tO emO..haku kalO emO nihhh nnT rsa 답답해 죽엤어! pas2 kalO dah puas tahan last2 breakdOwn jugakkkkk haihhhhh lemahh btOi! tp nakwat camna?! aaaaaaaarghhh gila r camnihh kalO slalu! manableyyyy! ishhhh2! xtaO punca! camna nihhhh...?? X(( bwk mngucap amirah.. xdak masalah xleh selesai...! sabaq2..! whatever... apa2 hal pOn, haku sgt tertarik ngan ayat nihhh :
"PERCAYALAH sesungguhnya ALLAH malu untuk menolak permintaan hambaNYA yg menadah tangan meminta dengan penuh pengharapan HANYA kepadaNYA.."
terharu kannn..? hmmmmmmmmm X')

hOme

i wanna gO hOme! hOme hOme hOme!
where there's nO One yelling at me~~ *except 4 my dad Of cOurse, but that is nOt yelling...that's what we call "caring"*
i wanna gO hOme!
because hOme is where i get tO dO whatever i want yet nO One hates me~~
i wanna gO hOme! i wanna gO hOme! i wanna gO hOme!
hOme is where i can be alOne withOut feeling lOnely~~
hOme is where i want tO be right nOw..
sylvie,집에가자~~

penat~~

penat! penat sgt..huuuuuuu~~ da tua agaknya asik2 rasa penat..kemarin pas klas trOs kuaq,malam bwu blk...hari nih pOn sama bngOn2 tdOq *tgh hari laaa* trOs grk ke itaewOn date ngan sajangnim.. petang bwu blk...dgn hujan+jalan jam aaaaaarghhh tensiOn laa jugakkk walOpOn da puas bergembira ngan aweks2! bersusah payah gakk haku pegang bnda alah kOtak yg dlm tu ada isi kek! sedap nmpaknyaa ntah laa haku xpnah rasa! tp kalO da harga camtu pnya mahal xkann laaaa xsedap plak! haihhhh niat di hati saja laaa..haku nih bukannya jenis berkira sgt kalO bab2 makan nihh..."ishh xkan laa xnak bwk balik kOtt..satgi merajOk plak!" rpanya2 camni plak jadi! haihhh....status skype haku td da terbentang haaaaaa "kalO haku taO baek haku simpan sendiri ja...makan sOwg2!" hmmm kadang2 apa yg kita ikhlas nakwat kat Owg laen nih, Owg tu xpandang pOn... haihhh xtaO laaa nak kata apa...saja ja nak lepaskan beban serabOt kat dada nih ha..nak bercerita kat Owg laen..xreti sgt nakwat sesi meluahkan perasaan nih..xpa laa..kecik hati haku biaq haku simpan sendiri ja laa...lama2 dia beku sendiri...da biasa~~~

쿠키&크림 ^^

haku nih dr td dOk wat sukjey calculus nihh xsiap2! macam mana nak siap kalO siap satu sOklan melalak 5lagu.... wat satu sOklan separuh jln, jari nih gatai dOk tekan2 fb mmg esOk pagi pOnnn xkan siaplah! huhu td putt blk umah ja trOs tdOq.. penat kOtt.. dia kuaq dr tgh hari td lagi.. tba2 peah bilik seblah mai ajak putt kuaq n minah tu pOn xckp bnyk ikOtt ja..haihhh ngigau ka apa? slalunyaaa maO mngamOk kalO kacO dia tgh tdOq tuuu...haku tnya laa peah awatnya,nakp mana..? "sOnbey nak jumpe" eyhhh ngan muka seriusnya pas2 trOs 'gedegangggg' tutup pintu blk... hmmmmm pelikk gila! cam serius ja ada Owg mati kOttt haha! malasss laaa haku nak pk pasai kpla hOtak lagi serabOt dOk pk pasai calculus nihhh haaa xsiap lagi esOk nak kna submit daa...selang 4-5 minit anise plakk dtg... "mirah! jOm teman aku p atas jap..aku nak amik brg kat umah sibOl..jOm laaaa..segann nakp sOwg2" eyhhhh2 kata td sibOl zOl n syamim p myeOngdOng..da blk ka??? "dahhhhh..jOm r...cepat!" dah haku siap2 kuaq umah... "eyhh jap2 haku nak amik brg lam umah sattt..meh r masOk dulu" laaaaaa anise nihhh! td ckp nak amik brg kat umah atas..ni apahal plakkk nak masOk umah hang nihhh.."wOi hang nakp amik brg kat atas ka nakp hantaq brg kat atas??" haihhhh lantak hangpa laa malaihh haku nak layann...apa2 ja laaa~~ skali masOk umah dia gelappppppp daaaa~~"heppy bday 2 uuuuuuuuuuu..laaa laaa laa laa la lala laa"~~~ haha! ada kek!!! laaaaa saja nak celebrate bday haku yg da lepas tuuu kaaa! ahaha hOw sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet~~

thnx kawan2 sbb ingat gak nak sama2 celebrate bday haku ni kat cni kannn walOpOn bday haku da lama lepas *22nd August* hehe syOk gakkk dpt mkn kek fav tgh2 sesak Otak wat calculus tuuu..

sapa yg ada eyhh malam tuu..? haaa da tentu2 laaaa putt,sOpeah,anise, my girlfriends mmuahhhh~~

pas2 juOn kat seblah nihh samimm thannnnx a lOttt

u've been there 4 me almOst all the time ups n dOwn huhu ada gakkkk sibOl,zOl n amire tlg memeriahhhkan suasana wahhhhhhhhhh!

얼마나행복해~~~ ^^ ~~~

Open hOuse//kenduri bday putt!! ^^

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh penattttttt..! xpOnnn! xpenattt pOnn ahaha! heppy ja rasa! hehe! bangOn pagi2 buta tuuu *10.30 tuu pagi laa sgt huhu* dah dengaq pOmpuan 2Owg nihh *putt n hyda* dOk pOt pet pOt pet apa ntahhhh aihhhh bangOn ja lar...da xleh nak sambung tdOq lagi dahh nihh haa.. tp mata xleh nak celikk! aiguuuuu~~ pas2 sembang2 weyhh..jum kita wat Open hOuse awal sket..xyah r wat mkn malam....Okayyy! kita wat lam kul 3-5 camtuuuu! purrrrfect! siap2 mandi trOs memulakan Operasi masakkkk! ahaha! hyda start ngan wat agar2 milO.. haku start blend2 bhn2 nak wat sambal tumis ikan bilisssssssss umphhhhh sedaaaap beb *perasann ja lbey* tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! siapppp! ahaha!

tgh2 masak-memasak tuuu la jugakk sempat lagi nak celebr8 bday putt hari tuuuuu haha! bley laa makan kek smbil masak tuuu haaaaaaa~~happy bday putt! semOga hang sgt happy n bahagia n aman sentOsa hahahahaha! saaaayang hang slalu! susahhhh nihh nak dpt rOommate camnihh haaaaa! mana nak cari Oii!!! ahaha!

hehe! pas2 mula laaaa

tetamu dtg....mula2 dtg tuuuu bdk batch sendiri laaa..all girls..umah yani pOn ada Open hOuse gakk...ngan umah mus...dOrg cOllabO...cam meriah gak r..lepas satu umah singgah umah laen plakk kannn...haha! ktOrg pOn xbajet laa tetamu nak ramai! ingatkan nak swOh suma bwk ja pinggan masing2 p umah ktOrg nihhhh last2 kna gak bli paperplate sbb susahhh laaa haha! tu r nakwat suma bnda last minit mmg r kalut haru biru camnihh haaaa haha!

ni lar para tetamu yg hadir.... kalO yg xsempat nak snap gambaq tuu sOrry laa...tp thnx jugak sbb dtg memeriahhkan suasana..kwn2..sOnbey a.k.a jiran tetangga sumaaa ^^

last but nOt least thnx jugakkkkkk pada suma yg terlibattt! saaayang kOrang suma! nak kna sebOt namakahhh?? ahaks!!

zOl:ayaq anda mmg terrrbaekkk

sOpekk:tanpa papercup mu xdpt minOm ngan sempurna laa kita sumaaa

hyda:thnx sbb wat hingaq haha! agaq

gula sekilO anda terrbaek gakk

syamim:anda mmg pndai wat chaOs!

Alhamdulillah sumanya berjalan ngan lancar..xdak apa2 brg pecah

ka hilang ka apa ahaks! kepada suma

yg terlibattt tuu, pihak tuan umah 조양오피스텡 bilik nO 204 n 205

nak ucapkan terima kasih bnyk2..bg yg xsempat nak merasa nasi lemak tuu insyaAllah ada jOdOh nnT kita wat mkn2 lagi naa.. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmuahhh2!!

invisible..???

tOlOngggg lar respOnse! haku nihh invisible ka??? xkannnn lar xnmpak? xperasan?? slalu sgt xperasan! dah naek meluattt dahh ngan jwpn tuuu..senang ckp, apa2 haku wat...xdak respOnse! kejammmm gila! mcm mana lagi haku patOt wat?? ka haku nih yg bnyk kerenah...? wahhhhh bnyknya sOklannnn yg haku xtaO nak jawab!

if i am the freaking prOblem, camna nak fixkan bnda nihh???? aaaarghhhh ntahh laa! nakwat xtaO? haku jugak jadi gila nnT! la ni pOnn da cam xbtOi skett dahh hehe~~

Selamat Hari Raya!

taun lepas ngan kes xberaya kat embassy sbb penat sgt mlm raya p tgk cOncert pagi raya tidOq mcm kayu balak xsedaq diri Owg call suma xdengaq....haha! pikir2 balik lawaaaaaaaakkk laaa Oii! hahaha tp On the bright side, haku dpt beraya ngan family haku..hOw?? skype laaa..! ngah yg da lawa2 ngan kebaya nyOnya dia tuu pOnn sanggOp meniarap dpn pc sbb nak videO chat ngan haku ~~hOw sweet~~ haku ni ha lagi laaaa depan lappy gakkk bersiap pkai bju kebaya ibu haku pOskan utk haku tuuuu yg beliau bli saiz besaq tp ngan naluri keibuannya *ceewahh* telah meng-alter- baju tuu ngan tepatnya menjadi saiz haku! wahhhh terer lar ibu! walOpOn taim tu videO asik sangOt2 cam hampehhhh ja tp xkesah laa..janji dpt tgk muka2 insan tersayang ni mmmmmmmmuahhhh2!!

tp tu suma cta taun lepas...taun ni..? mcm da xleh nak skype lagi ja..sbb internet kat umah jitra tuu abah da pOtOng huhu sadisssss.. camna nakwat??? calling2 ja larrr! alaaaaaaaa! senang cta kan...haku mmg xdak feel sgt nak beraya taun nihh....sebabnya?? haku da pijak msia da ada kat msia taim awal ramadhan da bersahur da berbuka sama2 family haku da...! tba2 taim raya nak kna raya kat cni! aaarghhh! satu impak maksima btOi! masa p jln2 cari baju raya ngan ibu tuu,xdak mOod sgt pOnnn nak pilih2..hah! amik ja yg tuu nmpak elOk ja tuhhh..! "bukannya dpt raya kat sini pOnnnn!" tu lar yg haku pk huhu...

xpa laa...bnyk kali rmai Owg pesan...pengalaman suma tuu..kan dtg kOrea nak menuntut ilmu.. hmmmmm btOl tuuuuu..tp haku nak emO skettt xbOleyyy kaaaa....????

anyhOw...bukan lar xdak makna langsOng raya kali ni...ada hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian kann...bersyukur ja ngan apa yg haku dpt hari nih..mana taO kOt2 raya taun dpn da xdpt lagi..huhu Wallahualam..

terima taaakkkk??! >.<"

wahai seOrang sahabat yg disayangi yg dari dulu haku anggap mcm sedara sndri dah..!

haku taO hang ckp hang xmajOk Or xkecik aT Or watsOeva sbb hang bukan janatOl ahaha tp haku rasa hang layak berada di situasi di mana haku patOt minx maaf...

sOwieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

ckOp panjang taaakk??? ka nak lagi panjaaaaaaaaaaang?! ahaha!

emOsi xstabil kadang2 tuu suma bnda haku nak attack...apa tuu..serbu xpkai helmet haa!

i've tOld myself...i will change 4 the better...InsyaAllah kalO niat tu baek nnT Allah S.W.T permudahkan..btOl x?? dOa2kan lar na..

sayang kamu! ingat ni!!

buruk sgt ka haku nihh??

last night was a huge pain tO me..saketttnya hati Tuhan ja yg taO..apa haku wat...haku pegang baby haku kuat2 *sylvie:that's what i called him* haku tekup kepala dia kat mulut haku n haku jerit kuat2! kuat gila smpai haku rasa satu apartment nih bley dngar.. *metaphOre ja tuh* tp rasa cam ckOp kuat ja...! xkOtt...sbb haku bukannya sOlely jerit...haku wat tu pOn sambil nanges teresak2! hehe! kenapa?! ntahhh! da nak gila agaknya huhu! bnyk kali gakk haku pk haku xsepatOtnya dtg cni..! banyak kali! tp dalam banyak2 kali tu berkali2 gak hati haku kuat nihhh ckp.. "blajaq laaa mira..4 the sake Of menuntut ilmu"...btOl tuu...kalO btOl niat tu, jihad namanya..

tu la kOtt yg wat haku cam Okayyyyyyy skett! bukannya apa...haku sdey...sdey laaa sngt! 2 3 menjak nih terasa sgt cam ada individu yg haku sayang sangat nihh menjauhkan diri dr haku.. susah sgt ka nak jenguk kpla tuu tgk haku nih..?? buruk sgt kOt haku! huhu xtaO laaa plak! buruk dimatanya mana laaa haku taO kann....pas2 tambah plakk satu lagi masalah nihh..ada plak sOwg lagi nihhh bley ckp haku trOuble maker lam hidOp dia! adeyyyy! tambah lagi satu sdey! xpa laaaa mira! u've had ur perfect life b4...nOw blajaq laaa nak HIDOP skett! deals wif things! naseb badan laaaa... mana nak ngadu? angkat tangan kat langit laaa..Allah S.W.T sentiasa mndengar..buruk mana pOn haku...InsyaAllah...

saya sayang kamu!!

saya sayang kamu!!! sayang kamu sangat sangat!! taO takkk??! sayangggggggg sangat sangatttt sangatttttt sangattt nihhhhhhh Owhhhhhhh winduuuuuuuuuuu daaa..! xsmpai pOn 2minggu!!

Owhhhhh anak2 yg laen...! sOwieeee xdak pic!! huhu! but u guys are always in my heart mmmmmmmmmmmmmmuahhhh~~~

new day..?

few mOnths agO...i thOught i have started a new day...with new visiOns..new attitude..new perspective.. i just thOught...that didnt happen the way i want it tO be.. i'm still the same.. i dOnt want tO be the same..i want tO get rid Of all the bad things in my mind,my head and my heart! i prayed a lOt..i knOw Allah S.W.T will hear me sOoner Or later..i want tO change! fOr the better!

but i realized i cant dO that On my Own..i need at a hand..tO hOld On tO me whenever i lOst my grip...still cOuldnt find One thOugh..dOing this all alOne is very hard..very hard...Owhh nO Allah please help me gOing thrOugh all this...i never wanna die withOut ur fOrgiveness... this time.. i really really wanna dO it right..! if Only all my friends wOuld have guts enOugh tO at least tell me what have i dOne wrOng...what shOuld i dO tO fix things up..urghhhhhhh im sO messed up!

(x.x)

"my day spOilt...

i'm nOt happy...

my life sucks...

all bcOz Of YOU!!!"

u may nOt remember...
but u've said all Of these...
i wOnt fOrget...

T.T

i wanna cry...

if being lOud...

first Of all i wOuld like 2 say im really sOrry...

fOr what i've dOne Or what i may have dOne...

i dOnt knOw where i went wrOng but that's what i heard..

~i did sumthing that might make Others dislike me, avOid me Or in Other wOrd HATE me..

here i gO.....

if being lOud...

makes each One Of u feel annOyed, irritated,

then im sOrry...

if being lOud...

makes u feel ashamed Of me,

then im sOrry...

if being lOud...

makes u angry,

im sOrry...

if being lOud...

makes u wanna bad-mOuthing bOut me,

im sOrry...

if being lOud...

makes u wanna avOid me,

im sOrry...

if being lOud...

makes u dOnt wanna be friends wif me..

then im really sOrry...

but what shOuld i dO..??

that's whO i am frOm the very beginning..

Owhh Of cOurse i will try my best tO change ~at least a bit~ but then what's the pOint if the changes will Only transfOrm me intO sumthin else..nOt ME anymOre...

~dat's scarrrrry~

hOwever it's scarrrrier tO think bOut what dO peOple think bOut me fOr being me...(which is very lOud Of cOurse)...

sO Once again friends....

i'm really really extremely sOrry if my LOUDNESS makes u feel uncOmfOrtable, annOyed Or whatsOever huhh...

i'll try my best tO reduce my "VOLUME" in certain circumference...

eg: fOrmal event etc...

hOwever friends...

dO nOt expect me tO change just because i'm afraid Of lOsing "fake friends"...

thOse are nOt friends..they Only knOw hOw tO critic and knOw nOthing bOut fixing..~even their very Own weakness~

sO,im nOt gOnna waste my time wOrrying bOut thOse peOple...

im cOol...just being ME! XP

p/s:thnx thOse whO always stand by me...! >.<

SILENCE

when sOmeOne remains silent, well let say fOr at least half an hOur..we can make a few assumptiOns that he/she might:

~wanna cOncentrate On what he/she is dOing..

~STRICTLY dOn't wanna talk tO sumOne else..

~wanna be alOne..

~dOn't want 2 be disturb

~having a rOugh day..

hOwever, On certain circumstances, he/she whO remains silent might:

~ lOnging 4 sOmeOne 2 pamper him/her..

~wanna talk 2 sumOne called "a friend"..

~ wanna scream,laugh Or dO anything fun fOr that mOment..

~be waiting 4 sumOne 2 cheer him/she up..

sO let us think...

there is nO One whO suddenly remain silent fOr nO reasOn...

which One cOuld it be...??

"da gila agaknyaa....."

aaaaaaaaarghhhhhhh!!!!

saya dah gila!!!

gila apa???!!!

gila maen gemmm laaa....!!!

xdakk Owg swOhh maennn pOnnn!

tp sindri yg nakkk!!

fiuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

tp rsa lega..! sbb dpt rsa blk passiOn terhadap sesuatu!

waaaaaaaaaaakaka!

apa hang merepek ni haa..??

kalO gila nak stadi xpa gak..

waaahaha!

-THE END-

tOot..tOot..tOot... ~discOnnected~~

i guess tOday wud b the biggest part Of my breakdOwn thrOughOut the whOle experience bein here in 4-seasOned land Of kOrea...as i wOke up in the mOrning...i knew sumthin wasn't rite..i felt like sumthin was hitting my head...hurts badly...dats why i didnt get up directly..i cOntinued watching an english fairy tale mOvie On yOutube which i cOuldnt finshed last nite..didnt feel like mOving frOm my bed...i cOntinued watchin the mOvie until...until..until One phOne call reached me...askin me 2 get dressed n b ready..i tOt.."wat??"...then another phOne call..One after anOther..

im nOt really gOin 2 talk bOut the phOne calls actually..cOz sum1 might as well get hurt..

after i deal wif all the calls..i realized sumthin really was wrOng wif my bOdy..i started 2 feel excessive pain in the head,my eyes started 2 burn as if im staring at the pc mOnitOr withOut blinking,and my thrOat hurts like sumthin stuck tO it..the flOor Of my rOom was burning hOt yet i still felt freezing cOld..wats wrOng wif me? dis might just be the heavy heavy heavy highhhhhh fever~~i tOt...

while having lOng nice warm shOwer,i started 2 tink bOut my ibu..hOw she wud b very wOrry everytime i fall sick..and hOw my abah wud seek every remedy in the wOrld tO cure me.. ~Owhh hOw much i miss u bOth~~

One Once said.. "nOpe..dOnt call ur mOm if u r sick..u wud make her wOrry..really wOrry..n dat is nOt gOod.."

but hOw..? i never hide anythin frOm her..i need her mOre nOw then ever.. T.T

then i asked One Of my best fellOw..wat shud i dO..and he said.."gO ahead..call her.."

and i did..! hOw i felt sO much better after hearing her vOice sayin dat bOth Of them r dOin just fine..n abOut 2 hav lunch with sambal tumis...my favOurite!

One Once said, "u can tell me everything...dO nOt hide,please..im willing 2 listen.."

but wat shud i dO if everytime i tell him sumthing,thOse wOrds dat he dOesnt want tO listen,wud pissed him Off..?wat shud i dO if wat i tOld him will finally turns intO screaming n yelling..? dat aint sOunds gOod isnt it..? sO dats why i rather say "nOpe..nOthin..im fine" everytime he demands me tO say sumthin..

n tOday..yes im nOt fine..yess finally i fall sick..yess maybe..just maybe..i fall sick Of dehydratiOn due tO the excessive excretiOn Of water..frOm where it shOuldnt...