Apr 23, 2013



I read this article entitled 'We Are Not Equal' and my brain was forced to digest every single detail in it. Not that I don't like the content, the ugly truth about how certain group of people, in a society, or in a governmental system are not treated equally in every aspect kinda pinch me.

The author suggests that regardless the outcome of one's effort, one should be applied with the same rule as everyone else. Meaning, as long as we are ruled under the same terms, we are equal.
Let's say there are two teams competing each other in a competition, one of the team is way weaker than the other. So, in order to make the match as a fair game, the weaker team is given a special privilege, 1 point ahead the opponents.
Now, this is said to be unequal since the rules applied are not the same on both teams.
On the other hand, some might say this sort of unequal rule is a necessity because literally, we are not born equally.

As you can see in the society, throughout the whole world, this kind of ideology is everywhere, where a certain group of people receive 'special treatment' while others will have to work their ass off *pardon my language* in order to achieve the same outcome. How unequal is that?

But we cannot totally blame the system. There are some minority individuals that desperately in need of this kind of head start, enabling them to compete with the higher rank individuals. For instance, looking back in the history, long ago, African American was constantly being oppressed, even up until now, there are still 'racist judgement' where their ethnicity has become their biggest obstacle even in getting a job interview.

Same goes in Malaysia, the government constantly spoilt the native with eye-blinding opportunity that they forget these sort of special treatment eventually thicken up the racist sentiment. Apparently, this, i repeat, special treatment, has done nothing but spoiling the people, teaching them to wait for life to happen, and lessen the need of struggling in achieving what they want.

But who should we blame? If there is no such thing as 'unequal rules', trust me, Malays would still granting clerk as the best career, allowing immigrants from China and India to dominate the economy. Hey this is not a racist judgement, think about it, before we declare the Independence, British secretly hid the Malays ability in ruling their own country, disacknowledging their talents and denying their rights on their own land. Immigrant was brought inside Tanah Melayu because Malays was said to be too lazy to work, but the truth is, they already knew that if these people rise towards them, everything will be screwd.
When we managed to establish our own country, the government, of course, will do anything to bring up their own people, in this case, the native.

So that was how the rules and regulations was made. That was the basis of everything that has become the main course of todays arguments. Equal rights, equal rules.
The question is, to what extent are we willing to accept this equality?
Those who are being spoilt with this rule must become uncomfortable for any changes, but those who are not in favors are demanding for the system to change.
Do we really need to replace the government or is it adequate to make some adjustment in the existing government?

The choice is always in our hand.
Selamat Mengundi :)

Apr 22, 2013

a leap of faith


I believe that we all want something more
We always demand for something greater

I know that feeling
The feeling of longing for something so bad that my heart could burst,
yet I'm still here, doing nothing but holding on to hopes.

We sometimes refuse to take the hard way to achieve our dreams, because we are too comfortable being in the position we are right now.
We are afraid.
Afraid that the next step could make us fall hard on ground,
afraid that we might lose everything.
Most of all, we are so afraid of not achieving what we want, that we even stop trying.

I'd like to start my life over
여긴 아니고 말레이시아 말고 어디서나
In other word, 'hijrah'
To explore His land,
To appreciate everything that I have (and had),
To at least contribute something for Islam,
To take a leap of faith,
and above all, to cleanse my soul as taught by our beloved prophet Muhammad SAW.

Mar 2, 2013

jangan berkecil hati wahai cinta hati


My father
He never ever mentioned my name during his last days,
Not even once
He didn't even ask for me to come back.

They said,
He did mention someone
One of his children
Maybe he missed her
Or maybe he loved her that much

I just smiled
Because I believe that that doesn't define anything
It definitely doesn't reflect his love towards any of his children
I believe he loved us equally

So dear sisters,
Please hold on.
Have faith, that love does not define by how many phone calls you get,
or how much attention you get
Love is how much you are willing to pray for each other's happiness, even when you're hurt.

Trust me,
Today she (ibu) might called me to hear my voice,
Who knows later you will be in her most pure du'a.

"doa seorang ibu itu makbul, tahu?"

Feb 22, 2013

1 년 남았네 흑흑

The weather would be too cold for my mother
The cost is too high for any of my siblings and their family
The time would be inappropriate for my friends in Malaysia

Just wondering,
Who would come to my graduation day next year? 

졸업 축하한다 8기 선배들
Happy Graduation Day Batch 83,
Semoga maju jaya :D

p/s: Stop worrying about the future
       Cherish every moment
       None of the events in our lives happened twice. 

Nov 17, 2012


hari ini banyak berfikir
perkara berat
kerana yang berat ini
mahu tak mahu, wajib dilakukan
untuk pastikan beratnya timbangan amalan kelak

berlapang dada

semua ini

cemburu dengan mereka yang telah mampu
kerana diri ini
seperti dedaun kering setelah hujan
tak bermaya, selalu tewas

가르쳐 줘요 ㅜㅜ

Oct 27, 2012



see the picture on the right,
the second picture from the top,
look carefully
the caption..
what does it say?

"my strength and my courage"

i guess i'm lacking all of those elements now

I miss you, abah
you have no idea how much :(

Sep 9, 2012



Untuk jadi gembira, kita sanggup buat macam-macam
Ada yang ketawa untuk tampak gembira,
ada yang cari hiburan untuk gembirakan hati,
ada yang gembirakan orang lain untuk ceriakan hati sendiri :)
ada juga yang pura-pura gembira supaya tiada yang tahu apa di sebaliknya

Ya benar, banyak cara untuk kita berasa gembira
Persoalannya, adakah kita benar-benar gembira?

Tanya pada saya,
gembira itu datang apabila saya usai berdoa kepada Allah, dalam selemah-lemah keadaan, penuh pengharapan, diiringi airmata :')

Kenapa saya rasa gembira ketika itu?
Hati yang terasa ringan dan tenang sudah semestinya mampu berasa GEMBIRA! ^^

Percayalah, sudah berkali-kali saya kecewa kerana airmata sudah tidak sudi menemani saya ketika saya berdoa
Pada waktu itu, Allah sahaja tahu betapa kecewanya saya
Kecewa kerana, airmata penyesalan itu juga kurniaan hasil ehsan Dia!
Kalau saya tidak mampu menangis menyesali perbuatan sehari-hari saya, itu tandanya saya sudah sedikit jauh dariNya ㅜㅜ

"mereka yang jauh dariNya terdiri dalam golongan orang-orang yang rugi"

Tak mahu! Saya tak mahu berdiri dalam golongan orang yang rugi! TIDAK!

Ketahuilah bahawa,
hati yang tidak mampu menangis ketika berdoa kepada Allah,barangkali ianya telah kering. Berdoalah supaya mampu menangis kembali

Cubalah. Mudahan kita dapat menikmati nikmat 'gembira' itu bersama-sama :)