wishin fOr rain...

"국체 전화입니다...."

Owhhh..tu laa ropa2nya sbb hp haku bergerak2 ja dr td...adey!

haku taO...walO sehampehhh mana pOn haku rasa skang, haku kna gak jawab call tuu..

xkan laa nak biaq ja bapak haku call camtu kan...xbaek pnya anak...

tp..kalO haku jawab..dah tentu2 laa satgi mcm2 sOklan kuaq..aisey..!

aaahh...jawab ja laa mira...bukan mati pOnn..!

"assalamualaikum..! haaa dOk watpaa..? awat lambat sgt nak angkat? ni mak nak ckp ni.."

gulp! tengOk tuu! belOm sempat nak jwb salam lg da bertubi2 sOklan kuaq..kann haku da kata td...huhu!

1st dengaq suara mak haku ckp..."hai mira...wat apa..?apa khabaq..?" haku da xleh cOntrOl..xleh nak fakekan suara happy lg da...haku jwb ala kadar ja...sbb kalO haku try fake kan jugak mesT haku nangess On the spOt! tp mana laa haku bley sembunyi suma bnda dr mak haku tuu...awal2 lg dia da detect...

"mira...awat ni..?laen mcm ja bunyi..laaa pasaipa..?cerita laa, awatnya..?bukan Org laen pOn..kita dua ja..siapakah yg menyakitkan hatimu tu..~mak haku try nak wat lawak plak~

apa haku jwb..? "ada laa ibu..ada laa tuu kann.." pastu cpt2 tukaq tOpik! padahal Tuhan saja yg taO betapa haku nak nangess banyak2 kat mak haku tuu...cta suma bnda kat dia..tp xbOleh..mmg xbOleh wat camtu..nnT dia risau..haku xsuka..

"laaa ibu xsuka laaa mira mcm ni....mira slalu gelak2 jaa bla sembang ni.."

ni laa ayat yg buatkan haku lagi nak nangess... ibu..mira sihat ja kat cni..xdak apa2 masalah laa..

tp mira rasa mira da bukan anak ibu yg dulu tuu...mira rasa laen..rasa cam hilang sesuatu..

nak haku ckp cam2..? eyhhhh xbOleh laa...sO, apa haku wat..? haku sambung pangggilan tuu ngan gelak ketawa haku yg mak haku suka..xpa..asalkan mak haku tuu happy, at least ringan sikit rasa apa2 ja masalah yg ada ni...

then...after i hang up the phOne..wat did i dO..?

i wished fOr rain...sO that i cOuld stand in the rain crying withOut nO One nOticing...

Raya...!

putt: haaa...?? suma de pegi...? budak2 chinese pOn..? alaaaaa....! ktOrg x sedar laaa....handphOne plak silent mOde..! eyhhhhh sedihnya raya cam ni ja...! mira pOn tdO lg tuu...! huhu..!

kata Puteri Liyana yg sdg berdialOg dgn haida melalui talian telefOn..

haku pOn apa lagi...bertubi-tubi memaki diri sendiri yg sedap tdO x sedarkan diri padahal hari ni hari raya PERTAMA!!! s2pid mira!!! padahal pg td samimm da kejOtkan haku...! swOh siap2! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhh!!!!

pegang ja handphOne bersepah-sepah miscalled n SMS..! huhu! damnit! handphOne tuu vibrate ja..! dah tuu plakk tgh charge..xda kat seblah taim tdO..sapa2 call pOn mmg laa haku xkan sedar..!

huhu! itu laa cerita pagi raya haku...Owg laen sepatOtnya beraya kat embassy...ngan sOnbey kwn2..haku beraya laaa ngan sylvie n chOcO...beeble zulia n guling2..hukhuk! sebak!

sumpahh haku teringat bapak haku..n cara beliau kejOtkan haku tiap pagi raya..*haku x pernah suka beliau kejOtkan tdO* bajet arr....haku kalO kat msia...mlm raya xpnah dpt tdO..bz ja..mcm2 bnda haku nak kna wat..decO umah..biskut xsempat bakar..kek x siap...urghhhhh! lepas subuh laaa haku dpt rest kejap...tiba2 kul 7++ bapak haku dah bisin2...

"Oii....!anak dara! bangOn laa..! apa ni pg2 raya tdOq sampai tgh hari ni...bangOn2!!p tOlOng mak tuuu...sapu sampah kat depan..apa ni..pagi raya x elOk tdOq! bngOn!!"

kata beliau tanpa belas ehsannya...huhu! haku ngan muka blurrnya pOn bangOn laa jugak..

nak ja haku menjawab.. "alaaaa abah ni...mira dari semalam xtdOq dOk wat kja...abah xpa laa..."

tp sbb hari raya kann...hehe!

pagi ni mmg laaaa haku tringat kat bapak haku! daa xdak Owg nak kjOtkan...hukhuk!

abah, mira mintak ampun mintak mahap bnyk2 naa....mira taO..mira slalu saketkan hati abah..

kalO ckp xmaO dengaq..sket2 nak melawan...ampunkan mira naa...mintak halal makan minOm...laa ni mmg xdak Owg nak kejOtkan tdOq dahh...pagi raya pOn xsedaq paa..! T.T

i called my mOm...oOoOoopss..my ibu! she's been bz..yeahh Of cOurse..it's the Eid anyway..

dOesn't even have the time tO say.."have u eaten..?" sad...cause i always be by her side..but nOt anymOre..i can't barely see her smile...nOt even the pain i caused in her eyes..i wanted tO kiss her hand..and her warm cheek...wanted badly tO hug her...like i always did befOre...

ibu! i miss u sO much! did 'yOng' *eldest sis* take gOod care Of yOu..? i'm dOing fine..just fine..

thOugh i haven't been able tO wear thOse beautiful baju raya u sent me...thnx ibu! Allah will sOmehOw granted yOu fOr wat u did tO me... i miss u badly ibu!

lately im nOt feeling really well..
nOt tO mentiOn being scOlded several times..
and tO face all sOrts Of emOtiOnal breakdOwns...
i didnt ask fOr any all Of these...
but i tried..try sO hard that sOmetimes I even fake my smiles...
knOw that it hurts...but it Only hurts mOre if i aint faking it..
i wanna run..
but nO..i shOuldn't dO sO..
One keep asking me.. "dOn't u lOve me..?"
can i just answer it with a smile..?
why cant i?

lOve is sO nOt Only a wOrd...
it's abOut hOw yOu take care Of each Other..
it's abOut hOw yOu pleased One anOther..
and if u lOve sOmeOne..u will always keep hOlding..

dats why i wanna be lOved...
but the Only lOve i'm craving fOr is..
the lOve fOr ALLAH S.W.T..
cause i wanna be lOved..
by HIM...

a letter..fOr Mr.Hate..

dear Hate...

i'm very sOrry fOr dOing this

but i just cOuldn't help...

i've tOld u nOt tO stay

but u keep cOming back...

u didn't even tOuch me

but then yOur presence...

keeps me thinking bOut yOu

even if it takes all night lOng...

u did nOthing wrOng

except fOr sitting quietly beside me...

hOlding my cOld heart heartlessly

sucking every piece Of warm i have left...

dear Hate,

why dO yOu refuse tO leave..?

please..dOn't stay..

i dOn't need yOu, Hate...

dear Hate,

if yOu dOn't want tO gO,

let me..

i'll gO

the beauty Of sneakers....!

shumel? peliks? cunn???!!

haha!

pic ni da wujud lama dulu...

haku pakai sneakers pink!! haha!

tuuu ada haida n krun skali.....!

~ ni pic kasOt haku n mus!!~

~kasOt ku n haida!~

~haha!! pinky tuu kasOt ai dee!~

ni kOleksi beramai2..!

yg sekelat kat ats tuu kasOt haida, itam kanan 2 kasOt mus,

sekelat bwh tuu ehemmm..ehemmm...

yg kanan itam 2 kasOt aini..!

perrrrghhhhhhhhhhhh........!!!!!

ni lar seni kasOt namanya....

kat sini ada kasOt haku,mus,haida,hamizah n zatiey!!

riang ria raya!!!!!!

haaaaa.....!!
ni lar sOnsengnim haku yg shumel2!!
kOrea mariiiii.....haha!
ni masa 'jemelis umah terbuka' cemara akasia..... bersusah payah haku kOrek baju raya lam lOcker haku yg semak cam hampeh tuh pnya lar nak meng'GLEMMM'kan diri mlm tuhhhh! dar lar siap lmbt sbb nak kna siapkan decO!! hampeh tOl! nasib baek lar haku nih bnyk backUp team!
hehe..
tenkiu bbnyak lar TAM, LEE WERN, JIA GOON! u guys r the besh!
sanggOp gak kOrang tlg haku ngan haida mlm tuhh...
terharu2...!













gila GLEMMMMM tOl!!
ni mmg pOse bley wat calendar nih...!
muahahaha!! haku lar ratu kipasssss....!! hehe!
ratu kipas ngan ratu kebaya dOk mencapub x sudahhh.... kui3..!
ahhhhhhhhhhh....! lantak r....
bukannya slalu pOn.... skali skala apa lar slhnya.....

wOi!!! ni kes luarrrrr biasa nihh..!
pOyOsss x abehh! haha! Tp xpa, bkn slalu! ni pOn haku jadi camnih sbb ada Org nak juin!! tuuuuu....yg dua Org kat blakang tuh~mus n nadz nama mereka~ pakar lam bab2 interpremmmmm nih!! haha!!

kengkawan.oOri kajOk.kami!

nak taO apa nama pic nih?
.......sunway lagOon wanna be.........
haaaaaaaaahahahahaha!!!!
nak taO apa kes dpt nama camtuh??

sebab........ada sOwg member haku ni kan, ~pin ying namanya~ dia tgk pic nih trOs dia jerit, "aiyOo mira!! ini pic mcm u Org berada di sunway lagOon maO turun itu slide lar....cuba tgk yOu Org di blakang tuuuu...."

kata beliau sambil ketawa terbahak...bahak...

agaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak btOl apa yg dia ckp! yg kat blakang tuu cam OverpOsed sket r...

adOi lar...!!

tp xpa! janji cunnnn....!! haha!

pic nih ktOrg amik taim hri las seblOm nak cuti raya...

sebab pas raya nak exam, pas exam trOs ktOrg kna shuffle kelas...sO kalO tggu2 lagi da xda masa nak amik gambar... huhu..! memang chaOs gla r nak cri pOrt bergambar pOn..!

haku siap berebOt2 lg ngan edward n mr.ahkim nak dOk blakang pnya pasal!

haha!! kecOh...kecOh... dalam pic nih, suma Org ada!

sOnsengnim pOn juin skali! mmg beshhhh r.....!!

senang cakap, bebudak GA taim 2 mmg happening habess r....

tu pasal lar bla taO ja kna shuffle, haku rasa cam xbeshhhhhhh......!

rasa cam kna tembak ngan bazOoka milik sendiri pOn ada gak..!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......!