Bismillah,
2012 has not come to its end yet it has brutally hurt me leaving bruises and scars everywhere
Everything, literally everything was in a pile of mess, causing a sudden rush of pain suffocates me to death
I cried helplessly for Allah to show me the answer to every questions puzzling in my head tangling my thoughts,
I asked Him to at least ease my pain
This year has been really tough
I thought i could live through it swiftly, l was wrong.. I can only hold on together just enough so that my family back home could see I'm doing fine, whether or not it is true
It was never been easy for me
I got angry, I started blaming everything but myself, I thought that nothing is fair for me, I thought I deserved better
Yea, that is not what a proud Muslim does
O Allah, forgive me for that ㅜㅜ
But I know YOU will also understand, it has never been easy for me
"HE wants you to remember HIM, always"
That is why he keeps me wondering,not giving me the answers now doesn't mean HE totally ignores me
"HE gave whatever you need,not what you wanted"
So he gave me this trial,a boost,so that i will work harder
That's me,trying to reasoned myself
it has never been easy for me, though
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